It broke her heart to hear him talk like that about himself. He's seen so much in his life and somehow that's painted the way he views himself and he can't escape that. No amount of love and affection she can offer would allow it. He had to find the answers for himself.

"It makes you a man who has seen the worst of the world and is so much wiser than a lot of us," she murmured to him, wishing she could get her arms around him. "But what about the good things? The people you saved by keeping others off the streets. You saved me from imploding. You kept Francis safe. I know I can't convince you, Jonathan, but you aren't some monster and I think it's more important you solve that than thinking about the father you could be. You need to see the man you are now... the way I see you."

She thought that maybe she should ask if she could show him. Let him into her head and see him through her eyes but... no.